Lately, I have had a lot of perspectives from a couple different view points (perspectives, right?!). It all actually started tonight at my high school youth group. We started our own series of "Living a radical life", pretty cool eh? I think it is awesome. Our leaders showed us this video of a kid about my age and his perspective on life.
Click on the link below to watch the video.
Seriously, this video made you cry right? I know it made me cry, that's for sure. But doesn't it give you this perspective? It makes you think about your life in different perspectives. This made me specifically think about my perspective on our youth group ( coincidence that it was at youth group...I think not!).
Lately, we have had a LOT of changes. And by that I mean a whole LOT. (PS- I DON'T like change...at all.) So, this has definitely been a faith tester to me and those around me. For me to tell the story I have to begin back about two years ago when I was very involved in my youth program. So, here we go. I was a sophomore in high school and the summer before had gone to this amazing Christian conference that would change my life forever...well, really Jesus did BUT it happened at the conference, so yeah. I was involved in the youth group. By that I mean I was devoted. Everything that was offered at my church, I did. I went to youth group, became apart of the "youth group clique". I always knew what it was like to be left out and here I was super involved and forgetting about those around me. I served but only to those I wanted to serve and wanted to love. That's wrong for the record. So, that's that...moving on to this spring-- I was pretty involved until we started this new series called ReachOut. The times changed from evening to afternoon (that's what I blamed it on..let's be honest). I decided to pull myself out of the youth group...little did I know I would be pulling myself from the clique. I left. For about three months until the BIG change went on. I won't go into detail but because of the change I decided to go back to my youth group...also, during this time it changed back to the time it was originally set to (the evening). I loved it yet I disliked it. I didn't feel comfortable. I could feel the clique. Now, this is coming from someone who was apart of this clique. I know what it's like, trust me. There was like a big brick wall between us. I tried to be friendly but I couldn't be me. The only people I am close with are the leaders--which is fine but at the same time it is HIGH SCHOOL youth group... :/ A lot of my friends have chosen not to go lately, which bums me out big time. I love it because I love Jesus and I love living life to the fullest, putting everyone else first before my own needs, loving others, being friendly, and just being able to me in front of people. Church is where I can be me without a doubt. I can be crazy, funny, sassy, you name it....all in one place. Also, I love it because I love learning more about how Jesus wants me to live my life...and because I love the leaders. I want my youth group to change. Even though I DON'T like change. This is something we all need to work on together and I know it can't change within a second, a minute, or even a few weeks but we need to have a positive outlook. We need to be a community not a clique. I'm pretty sure God wants us to be a community too.
Thanks for reading my life drama/thoughts/whatever you may like to call it! But I leave you with this-
And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.
Hebrews 10:24-25
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