Waiting.

Waiting. Let's be honest no one really likes to wait on something, wait for something. We all have a tendency to be impatient. Right now, that's me. When I feel called to be somewhere or do something, I like to do it right away. I tend to be the spontaneous one which can be good is someways and bad in others. For example, I randomly decided to get my haircut. Bad choice, BAD choice. But, recently I have learned that the Lord wants me to wait. He wants me, Little Miss Impatient, to be patient. And boy, oh boy is he taking his precious time. Part of it is nature too.

Way back when in September at the beginning of my college application process, I didn't know where I was going to apply. Take that back, I had an idea but didn't feel like that is where Jesus was leading me. I decided to pray, alone at first, where the Lord wanted me. After four consistent weeks of prayer, Jesus revealed himself to me. He wants me to be in the South. With hints everywhere, from newspaper articles, to sermons, to music, to EVERYTHING, the city of Atlanta was calling my name. I was A-okay with this. I felt like I could pack up and move the next day. But, I am still in high school and still live with my parents. Bummer. Time for patience.

Ever since those days of hearing and seeing the city of Atlanta everywhere, they still appeared. It didn't stop...it got a little weird at times. I prayed and prayed. I finally opened up to my best friend about this. She knows me very well and although I thought she would be like no you are just thinking that, she prayed about it. I have no idea what her actual thoughts were during this time but I'm guessing they were nothing like mine. A couple of days later I received a text from her that would change my life forever. The text that read, "I could see you there in the South. I'm serious." Her opinion means so much to me and I know that she leaned on the Lord for this answer too. At that moment I couldn't believe it.

I dream. Really, I do. I have a BIG imagination which is great for a lot of things like random ideas, party-planning, etc. But, imagining my life is a whole other story. For the first time, I felt comfortable with the fact that I would be leaving Columbus, leaving everything I know to go to this new city. I had dreams almost every night of being in the city of Atlanta, loving Jesus. My heart was so heavy on this, I just wanted to leave and go. I saw myself living life for Jesus, serving him and raising a family in this city.

After opening up to some of the closest people in my life, family and friends, EVERYONE I talked to saw me in the South, saw me in Atlanta, saw me in a city I feel called to. I continue to pray about this and with only six months left of high school and a big college decision to be made soon, my answer will be coming and more of his will be too.

Now, I have to wait and pray. I invite you to join me on this journey Jesus has me on.

"Waiting isn't wasting when you are waiting on the Lord"

[read this the other day on twitter and it basically described my life]